Exaustion!

In the book Margin, it talks about progress and what that has done to our society. Progress has left us in exhaustion. We are no longer able to take control of progress but progress takes control of us.

Well the summer is over. As I finished up my last day at work today I thought about how quickly the summer went by. It seemed like it just started, and yet at the same time like it has been going on forever. I am exhausted from everything. I have yet to even start what will be one of the most challenging year yet. Between school, co-presidency, my internship, work (possibly 2 jobs), and friends I don’t know how I will even have time to breath. My heart aches at the thought of it. I wonder what I have got myself into, I know that I cannot do this alone; I must rely on God’s strength and not my own.

George MacDonald a Scottish author and poet once wrote that “It is our best work that God wants, not the dregs of our exhaustion. I think he must prefer quality to quantity”. When I read this I thought of everything I’m doing this year, and I want to do it with quality. I wish I could look at all I’m doing and say with assurance that I can do this with quality but I’m afraid that I will gain the attitude of just “getting by”. This is not living out our theme for the year; this is not living full stride. And it’s most defiantly not trusting in God to renew my strength (Isaiah 40:31). As the summer comes to an end and the school year begins, I hope to learn new ways to live this out.

-T.