Well what a week its been, I can't believe reading week is over. I was asked near the end of the week, "How did not getting done as much work as you hoped go?". I thought what an appropriate question because we never seem to get as much as we would like to achieve.
This was a draining but quite amazing week for me. I don't know if I've said this yet but my internship is taking place at the woman's prison here in town. I spent quite a bit of time there this week. Each time I go I learn so much and I am more excited each time I leave. The women there and my supervisor are amazing and they teach me so much and stretch me to work harder and be better just by who they are.
I had the privilege of joining something called
Alternatives to Violence (AVP) this weekend. I had never heard of this program before but after this weekend I believe it should be offered everywhere especially in schools. We grow up believing that fighting is necessary to gain respect or if someone challenges you your weak if you back down but this program helps to challenge that teaching.
This group gave me so many great tools for conflict management that can be used in any disagreement. As well taught me about myself. Lately I've been really struggling with how to trust, and why I'm so afraid. This feeling has really surfaced in me lately and has been the majority of my prayers/questions to God. On Saturday we were doing an exercise on transforming power and one of the pieces of it was expecting the best. This really struck me, I realized especially in my close relationships I expect the worst. For example with Dave, I go into conversations with him expecting him to say something or do something. And so I look for every wrong thing and disregard the good and I realized I'm looking for another reason to stay hard and not to trust.
As I reflected on this Saturday night, I felt a sense of freedom. And even more when I came back to the group Sunday and we discussed the next steps. The freedom of realizing why it is so hard for me to trust and beginning change that thinking. Changing the thinking that I can't trust, and to continually think positive. I try to live my life never giving up no matter what is thrown at me, looking for the best solution. I needed a reminder of who I am and the strength and joy God has given me. I never want to be a victim of my environment and I am thankful that God has allowed me a way out, and I want to help those who did not have that gift. I'm so thankful for the reminder I got this weekend, and the freedom I was given.

- T.
Elin and Gabriel's first time sitting in at Tim Hortons :)
On Tuesday of reading week when we all went bowling :)