Piece of mind...

This picture was taken just over a year ago. I was experiencing some of the worst pain of my life. I had been through a lot, my life has been anything but normal, simple or easy however for the first time I had fully trusted someone, fully loved them and fully let them in. And my worst fear came true, they took it back and returned my heart even more mangled than before. Fortunately my heart was God's and so its foundation was firm, but it does not reduce the pain of humanity.

I can remember praying that for just one second I could feel better and not only the emotional pain I went through in that time but the physical pain of a deep loss would be gone if just for a moment. Pain is hard regardless of what it is but I had learned enough from my past to know that God is sovereign and He will never let me go, and in Him I can put my trust so I held out for the time when he would give me some relief. Crying out to Him day and night. On the day that this photo was taken I was given moments of relief, and although the future moments would be very hard I was reminded that God gives just what we need for each moment. I came across this photo tonight (morning) and it was just another reminder that as I continue to heal from each piece of my past God is with me, granting me the strength I need for each day. To feel the sting of the alcohol that will clean my wounds and heal what has been torn.

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds" - Psalm 147:3

- T.